...this once anyway.
I still go back IN the nest when I return.
Bah humbug.

At airport waiting for my next flight
which will finally bring me to my destination.

So yesterday, my parents accompanied me to the airport
(first real family-like thing with parents EVER in my memory)
It was strange but not that strange...
which was strange.
But it didn't really bother me THAT much.
Nor did going on a plane and in airports by myself.
Huh.
It's strangely natural--the airport/plane thing, not the parent thing.

Anyway, I posted something
re:strangeness
on my Twitter account
yesterday while waiting at the gate.
But then realized I can't really use Twitter
to keep an account of my adventures.
So I think NuTang will be good for that.
Let's see how good the internet is over there...

If you guys want to know my Twitter handle despite that:
ask randomjunk
or invisible
or Thaitanic
or anyone else I can't remember who has it.
I would put it here but I can't remember it anyway...=P
I still use it sometimes in the States. =)

This airport's WiFi SUCKS
my phone can't get on. =/
HURRRAH for FREE INTERNET COMPUTERS!

Gotta find my gate.
Toodles~

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I'm leaving the United States of America tomorrow. AHHH!!!

Even crazier is the fact that YOU-KNOW-WHO IS OKAY WITH IT! Un believable. It's crazy. But true?! Yes! Wowzers.

@Randy: Thanks so much! I love ya!
@Renaye: Thank you~
@Queen Zanzi: No circus, but it feels and looks like one sometimes!
@Muffy: I don't blame ya. I'm not exactly all caught up with you either...;P I need to but I've got so much on my mind right now...>.< Bad excuse, I know. I love ya?
@Lynnie: Sorry, can't tell ya or I'll have tah kill ya. I will tell you that...I'm off to fulfill my dreams and I'm just getting started. Is that okay?

Am I ready? I don't know if I'm ready.
Are my things packed well? Don't know if I'm missing anything. 0.0
Helllllllp!
Packing list, anybody? Good for a few months?
Huh? Huh? HUH?

Shaddap Silver.
xoxo

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Right after I posted, she had a reaction that was basically this:
No! You can't go anywhere without my permission!
Again, I kept quiet and avoided speaking on the subject.

Unfortunately, I'm short on time and leaving in a week...
I really want to tell her before I get on the plane...
I can't just go with an email/text/phone call...
But I'm afraid she'll stop me from going to the airport.

Chinese New Year is next week.
What timing, eh?
But I don't make the deadlines and I've
already pushed back the date as far as possible so
I can spend the first few days of new year at home.

Plus there's so much to be done before I go!!! >.<
Aaaagggghhh, I'm already stressed for time and a growing to do list.

Wish me luck!

xoxo,
Silver.

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I hope your lives have been satisfactory thus far! =)
I have returned after a very long absence (feels like years)
because I was about to turn off my new (somewhat, it's been a few months)
laptop when I thought of the 'Tang and realized I was overdue for a visit.

My plane tickets are booked,
the date is looming very near,
and there are some loose ends to be tied up before I go.
I finally got up the courage to let her (for 'Tangers, it's you-know-who) know.
At first, it was like ice hitting hot oil
but then I didn't mention it again for a while until this week.
She's okay with it. Kinda. I won't be gone for long (it's just a quick trip)
and no one knows what will happen afterwards.
I'm of the belief that everyone finds their happiness,
the happy ending that suits them best.
One door closes, another will open--perhaps at a most unexpected place.
And I'm okay with that. I haven't explained everything
but I think she understands.

Thank you to those who commented on the previous post
because they made me feel very lucky to have such great cyber friends. ;)

'Till next time~

xoxo,
Silver.

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I'm at a crossroads
about to make
the most important decision in my life thus far.

How far will I go?
The farthest I can!
Will my dreams come true?
One step at a time and we shall see!

I have hope like I never had before.
It makes me excited!
I am eager to get started.
But to do so means leaving the life I've always known behind.

My stomach is in knots because I know I will travel this road alone for a time.
Most of all, after all these years of trying to be a good daughter to earn my mother's love, I must leave her.
She does not support my dream. She does not believe I will succeed.
In many ways she is the source of constant negativity in my life.
But I do not hate her for it.
I am not leaving because of it; that is not a good enough reason.
I am leaving because this is what I want and I need to take responsibility for my life.

Will you give me your blessings?
Will you wish me a fair journey?
Will I have you to come back to when I need encouragement or just to talk?
I think it would be nice to have you be a part of my journey, however large or small a part.

I have no fear of failure.
There is only one choice when we are out of choices, and that is to continue living. Only this will give us more choices, different roads to take.
After I have learned and lost,
I will choose another.
After I have learned and gained,
I am strengthened, replenished, and ready to continue traveling.

I know hard times await me.
I am ready to do my best and work through it.

My journey starts today.
Part I begins.

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Please refer to this public post on G+: https://plus.google.com/116222833568410151476/posts/Ucv4VShtdrt
It's not necessary to understand my entry but it was my jumping point so...copy 'n paste the url please! I can't make the link button work for Chrome for some reason. Sorry. =/

"Personal experience and seemingly random encounters are incredibly informative. There is so much to be learned about a population no matter if it is niche, city-wide or more extensive. It's hard to understand people (in general or specifically) if our daily lives are just brushed off as random coincidences.

I like asking questions. I have been on the receiving end of many a judging look or bewildered comment from my peers after asking a simple direct question. I rarely receive an answer without awkwardness or repeating the question.

On the other hand, there is a risk of thinking too much. "If it's not a random then..." can lead to conspiracy theories (My phone is tapped!) as well as self-delusion (They did this because they hate me for my talent! Jealousy is just sooo ugly.) These can lead to misunderstandings that may or may not be rectified; e.g. creating broken homes, hurting a significant other/friend or getting fired. I think the boundary is easier to spot this way: if it's too outlandish and there isn't enough or any evidence to support it, back away and don't entertain the idea."

Er, comments?

p.s. As you can see, I've kind of decided to post both here and there. My main concern is that what happened on FB may or may not happen on G+. Honestly, I trust Google more than FB but it CAN happen. Namely, something that we thought would be private can become public because of some idiot's error. I believe the incident was that FB allowed one's friends to access private messages (or was it chats). That would not be fun. G+ is linked to me, the REALITY'S ME. This is not, thankfully.

Which brings me to...@MIDDAYMOON: WAS THAT AN INSULT? YO, WATCHA MEAN BY THAT?!

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